All couples go through emotional ups and downs, but when your spouse is cheating on you, you often have an intuition or inner-knowing that informs you that there is trouble ahead. Nothing happens in a vacuum and infidelity may be a symptom of something else going on at home. On the other hand, your spouse may just be a cheater. It may be that part of his behavior pattern that you either didn't notice, or want to know.
Cheating is particularly damaging to a relationship and is the cause of most divorces. That's because it targets your very sense of self, your feelings of value, self-worth, and self-esteem. And, when cheating is discovered, you go through the same symptoms of grief that you would, if you experienced the death of someone close to you. Betrayal tears at the very fabric of your being. I had one friend tell me that she felt as if her best friend had died. The one person in the world who could give her comfort and solace, at this time of pain and suffering.
Cheating is a conscious choice
So why do people cheat, when they know they leave so much destruction in their path? Sadly, people choose infidelity; no one sees another person across a crowded room and falls into her arms. Cheating is a conscious choice. Also, in the throes of an affair, the cheater feels both omnipotent and invisible, caught in the charge of emotion, and disregarding the possibility of discovery... at least at first.
Why people cheat on their spouses
So why take the risk... why cheat? We call infidelity cheating because it takes something away from a mate. It takes away intimacy, time, activities and experiences. An affair often signals that something is wrong in your relationship. For example, a spouse may choose someone less attractive, less sexually well-matched and less interesting than her partner, in an effort to remedy or compensate for what she perceives as lacking.
I remember a story long ago, of a man who both loved his wife and was happy in his relationship. But, each day at noon, he had lunch with a co-worker, who supported him in his job and made him feel secure. As the focus of her attention, this fellow unconsciously slipped into his comfort zone of mother and as a result felt secure and comforted.
Ultimately, he left his wife for this woman, never really knowing why. And, of course, that new marriage failed in the end, as it was really based on the projection of his early childhood patterns with mother.
When your spouse cheats, he chooses to take away some of himself from you. And because you may feel that something is amiss, that you can't put your finger on, you may find yourself agitated with a feeling of free-floating anxiety. These discordant feelings can lead to fighting. And, when you are fighting, you can't build intimacy. Now feelings of being under-valued, invisible, and unimportant lead to a vicious cycle of space and distance from one another. This may cause your mate to feel lonely, angry revengeful, and disconnected from you. And, influenced by these feelings, he can become vulnerable to another person's attention, focus, and charm.
12 signs that your spouse is cheating include:
1. An obvious emotional withdrawal from you... and a lack of emotional intimacy. When you are fighting, it is difficult to find emotional intimacy and often a cheater may create a fight, because he needs space and distance from the relationship. Therefore, he can subvert the relationship and regain control.
2. Extra time spent away from home, i.e. late nights at the office, work on the weekends, trips away from home and without you.
3. The tell-tale lipstick on his collar, marks on his body, unfamiliar scents in the air and clothing, all pointing to intimacy with someone else.
4. Lack of physical intimacy with you.
5. Stirring the pot, starting fights at home.
6. Acting vacant and detached from you.
7. Sudden interest in his appearance: losing weight, working out at a gym, buying new clothes.
8. Often exhibiting a younger look.
9. Unusual showering patterns, when he returns home.
10. Possessiveness. Accusing you of flirting or being interested in others. Remember: the best offense is a good defense.
11. Picking on you, and undermining everything you do. Or, on the other hand, being excessively flattering and polite, bringing home the occasional flowers or gifts.
12. Telling you that he needs time alone to think about your relationship. You can be sure, if he goes away to think about your relationship... he's not going alone.
What you can do if you think your spouse is cheating:
So what can you do about it? If you've never been behind the closet door, you don't look there. Partners that don't cheat can miss the subtleties and nuances of their spouse's altered and sometimes guilty behavior. Listen to your intuition or to the subtle innuendos of friends and colleagues. Be proactive, paying attention to the ripple or changes in your day-to-day experience, with your spouse.
Look online. Here's where many relationships begin. And no: an online relationship is not the same as physical adultery...remember Jimmy Carter's famous line that he only lusted in his heart.
Now you must choose: do you want to save your marriage? Is it worth saving?
If the answer is yes, then use my Empathic Process to confront your mate. Talk about your feelings without defense and listen to his. Professional help can guide you into the realm of your feelings, so that you can decide if you still love this person.
If the answer is yes, and if he loves you as well, then together you can re-build your relationship. Use a ritual such as reconfirming your vows, with the promise of creating, not the same relationship, but something new. Because now through the approach of counseling and my Empathic Process, you can get to know each other, perhaps for the first time... the good, the bad and the ugly and decide how you want to live your lives together. It's easy to get a divorce, but if through authentic and open conversation, you find that you love each other, then you may also decide that this relationship is worth saving.
In the final analysis, these choices are yours. Deep woundings, such as adultery, never truly go away. They form an outer scar covering your inner wound... and, a grieving process, a transcendent experience into a new relationship identity for you and your mate.