5 Ways Through Grief

Grief is not so polite that it acquiesces to being put into categories or stages.

It's a raw, amorphous, unique experience for each of us. No one can say "I know how you feel" because they aren't you.

I wish I could say I know how you feel, but all I can say is I know how I felt, and these are five things I wish I had given myself permission to do.

SUBMIT

Submit your body, submit your mind, submit your heart, submit your soul.
A piece of you will die here, when you face the death of your father, your mother, your spouse, your child, your friend. A piece of you will pass with them. Let it pass.

You will want to chase after it. You will want to hold on.

RELEASE

Stay where you are. Breathe where you are. Let the darkness embrace you. Somewhere deep inside, between your heart and your gut, there will be a blood-curdling cry that will rise.

LET IT OUT

Weep in airplanes, in grocery stores, in church or on your kitchen floor. Weep for hours or for years. Whenever it rises in you, let it out.

Speak it, write it, sing it, dance it, dream it. You've got something to say, especially if you didn't say it before. Say it now.

The world may or may not give you audience. Speak it anyway. Speak with the voice you still have the truth that won't let you sleep.

This is not a time for whispering. Whispering is for secrets. Death is not a secret.

STAY WITH IT

Sit with it; the sadness.
Sleep with it; the sorrow.
Walk with it; the heaviness.
Learn it; your heart.

Stay by your side. Don't abandon yourself until you feel better. Wear your grief like an overcoat that covers your scarred soul until it is ready to brave again the light of day.

It is not shameful. It is not crazy. It is not wrong. It is not too much.

ALLOW FOR HEALING

You will start to heal. One day, miraculously, you will rise.

Allow your body, allow your mind, allow your heart, allow your soul. Rise to your knees or stand and run, out of the shadow and into the light. It is your gift to move. To mourn. To speak. To breathe. To run. To love. To be. To live.

Live fully. Love fully. Lose fully. Do everything with heart and soul, while you still have a heart and a soul.