Addicted to Toxic Love? 7 Sneaky Triggers Keeping You Stuck & the Antidotes

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"I know I need to end this relationship, but I texted him three times yesterday. Why did I do that? What's wrong with me?"

This is a common refrain from many of my private clients. These are loving, considerate, intelligent, often very successful people. Yet they struggle to leave emotionally abusive relationships and even end up chasing a toxic partner they broke up with.

Why is it that many people don't act in their own best interest in relationships? The answer is Love Addiction

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Love addiction is a real thing. As real as an addiction to drugs, alcohol or gambling. It affects the brain the same way, with shockwaves of dopamine, oxytocin and the opioid hormone that trigger the pleasure center of the brain.

Who Is at Risk for Love Addiction?

In her Psych Central article, Alexandra Katehakis, Ph.D., MFT, CST, CSAT says:

"People generally become love addicts due to a past history of abandonment from their primary caregivers. Adult love addicts usually recognized as children that their most precious needs for validation, love and connection with one or both parents were not met.
“This affects their self-esteem dramatically in adult life. It results in a conscious fear of abandonment and an underlying subconscious fear of intimacy. To a love addict, intensity in a relationship is often mistaken for intimacy."

If you feel like this might be you, I'd like to address one mental habit that makes you "text him three times" when you intellectually know you need to let go and get out.

Mental Habit: Constantly Thinking About, Obsessing About, or Trying to Figure Out the Object of Desire, Even When You Know It's No Use.

When the Addictive Brain is threatened or triggered by the removal of the drug/love interest and faces the excruciating pain of withdrawal, it will do anything to get that drug back.

It will kick into overdrive; thinking unceasingly of the object of the Love Addiction.

There are 7 Sneaky Triggers the Addictive Brain uses to keep the constantly-thinking-about-him cycle going, which can lead to relapse. I'll give examples of healthy antidotes to replace triggers:

Trigger One: Denial

This can sound like: I know that he cheated, but maybe he'll change? Or, He says he loves me, I should just believe that, even though he's critical and inconsistent, maybe if I just try harder things will change.

Trigger Two: Romanticizing

It isn't Love unless it's full of peril and passion or He did take me out for my birthday that one time. It's really hard for him to do things like that because he had a difficult childhood.

The Addictive Brain has selective memory and often tortures us by thinking about the "good times" in the relationship.

These "good times" are often what happened between the sheets. Because there's no sex so good as the volatile, unpredictable, inconsistent kind where you don't feel entirely safe. That's just Dopamine City.

Antidote for Triggers One & Two: Write Down All of the Bad Times, Sparing Yourself No Sad Detail.

This might seem like self-torture, but if you truly want out, sit down and write about every disappointing, painful and even humiliating thing that occurred in the relationship and how it made you feel about yourself.

I have a client who discovered her fiance was cheating on her. She contacted the woman he'd been with and asked her if she'd be willing to tell her every detail of what happened.

The Other Woman was happy to comply as she too had been duped into thinking she was the only one.

This is an extreme example of jumping into the mouth of the wolf, but it helped my client shed her denial and the romanticizing that kept her going back.

Each time she thought about contacting him, or replying to his texts and calls, she forced herself to reread his hurtful behavior and knew she deserved better than that.

Trigger Three: Bargaining

This sounds a little like: I can just use him for sex. I won't get hooked again. Or. I'll just see him one more time to give him a piece of my mind.

Antidote: Break Down the Cycle-of-Bargaining and How It Ultimately Feels After You Give In to the Addiction.

When you find yourself trying to justify going back (and I suspect this isn't the first time), write down what the results of going back have been in the past. Do you see a pattern or repetitive cycle?

If so, write down -- in detail -- how the pattern works, step by step. It might be something like:

  • He's mean, critical, maybe unfaithful.
  • You finally have had enough and break up with him.
  • He begs and begs and wants you back, tears and saying he's changed.
  • You go back.
  • The cycle repeats.

Sometimes seeing the scaffolding behind the facade of a relationship can help us stop bargaining with ourselves that things will be different this time; that he'll be different or you'll be different. Because without a lot of time apart and individual work toward recovery, it will be the same.

Trigger Four: Fear

This might sound like: What if there's nobody better out there? Or I'm too old to start over, or a million more fears!

Trigger Five: Ego

This might sound like: I'm going to do a little detective work to see if he's suffering as much as I am. Or, I just want to see if he put his profile back up on J-Date.

Trigger Six: Victim Mentality

This might sound like: He told me I was the "love of his life," how could he treat me so badly? Or, How could he be so mean! Or, I never get the good guys.

The Addictive Brain is very sneaky with these three.

It gets our general anxiety ramped up -- the way drug addicts feel anxious when they need a fix -- and the only way to relieve the anxiety is to connect with our love addiction object.

Antidote: Mentally Walk Yourself Through the Process of the Aftermath of Giving in to Fear, Ego and Victim Mentality.

I have a client that wants desperately to break free from her guy and is the one who initiated the break up, based on his history of using her and cheating on her.

She occasionally relapses and texts him due to fear she'll be alone forever, ego that wants to know if he's suffering too and victim mentality that really, really needs him to apologize for his cruel behavior, hopefully on his knees in abject misery.

So I walked her through the process of relapse.

We discovered that she feels general anxiety building up when she hasn't communicated with her object of love addiction for a day or two.

The anxiety becomes acute, so she texts or calls, even though she intellectually doesn't want to.

After she's left the text or message her anxiety is relieved. She can breathe again and feels much better until ...

Time passes and he hasn't responded ... then the anxiety begins to build again, only this time it's worse, because he hasn't responded and the need for a fix is more powerful than before.

Writing down the pattern of what your fear, ego and victim mentality result in -- which is just more fear, ego and victim mentality -- can help you see the futility of this cycle.

Trigger Seven: Isolation

If we've spent all of our mental time thinking about our love addiction object -- we rarely have any time, mental or emotional space to nurture other healthy, supportive relationships with friends, family members, co-workers or some kind of mental health community -- I love 12-Step recovery for getting out of addictive relationships.

Antidote: Connect, Connect, Connect!

When you find yourself isolated in your addiction, get to recovery meetings; they can be 12-Step or any type of recovery you feel comfortable with.

But don't think going to meetings should feel easy and comfortable at first; they might be initially scary -- get on your own team and out of your comfort zone and Just Do It!

"Love Addicts are often attracted to Sex Addicts; and Sex Addicts are drawn like magnets to Love Addicts." — Shannon Colleary; She Dated the Asshats, But Married the Good Guy; How to Go from Toxic Love to Real Love in 12 Exercises.

Sadly, it's a match made in Hell. But there is help and Love Addiction can absolutely be vanquished. I know, because I did it and my clients are doing it too.

<p>The author and her husband of 16 years. Her reward for recovering from Love Addiction.</p>

The author and her husband of 16 years. Her reward for recovering from Love Addiction.

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