Two years ago around this time I was meeting you, my idol and inspiration, for the second time at your iconic Piece of Me show at Planet Hollywood Resort and Casino in Las Vegas. You might not remember me, but you have changed my life. I can’t believe how much has changed since August of 2014. Back then, I wasn’t the person I am today. I was lonely, depressed, and hated what I saw in the mirror because I didn’t love myself. The thing that affected me most was my sexuality. Although I had come out to the world and looked happy on the outside, I was not feeling the same on the inside. I didn’t understand why God made me this way.
If God made me this way, why didn’t I love myself for who I was? Why was I so confused? Why did I hate being me?
I acted like everything was okay and didn’t communicate to my family or friends with what I was battling with on the inside. I pushed everyone away and secluded myself from everything.
One day when I was in my room alone laying down, I was listening to your music. At that moment I started thinking to myself, “Why was I put here on earth if I can’t accept myself?” That was when your song Stronger came on. I sat up from my bed and began to cry. It was as if a switch inside of me turned on, and made me realize I couldn’t live the way I was living anymore. I could not hate myself because of my sexuality and I could not keep all these feelings inside me any longer, I needed help.
As time went on, I began to open up and talk to my best friend more and more about what I was dealing with on the inside. Although I didn’t receive professional help at the time, with your music and guidance I knew I could get through what was going on.
August 20 arrived, the day I was meeting you again. I began to put the finishing touches on a letter that I’d soon be giving to you. At the meet and greet I not only got to give you that letter, but I also got to hear you tell me how proud you were of me for being so strong. When you told me that, I was so emotional. Hearing you, my inspiration tell me how proud she was of ME was the most rewarding thing to hear. After walking out from meeting you I was then told that you wanted my address to respond to my letter as it meant so much to you, I was overwhelmed.
A few days passed after I got home from my trip to Las Vegas from seeing you. I was sitting at my dining room table when I heard the mail man pull up to my driveway. After seeing him leave, I went to go get the mail and there it was, an envelope from you. When I opened the envelope and read the letter, I bawled my eyes out. It was as if all my emotions I had been feeling for the longest time were being set free. The letter meant and still means more than you will ever know to me, Britney. You helped me when nobody else could and made me change my life for the better.
Things have changed so much because of you. I am no longer struggling as much with myself as I use to, but of course I still have my days where I lack confidence. Because of you, I had the courage to talk to my family and friends about my struggles and tell them what I was dealing with.
Everyone has something or someone that can help them when they are down or struggling, but mine, which is you, truly saved my life. Two years ago, I wouldn’t have thought I’d make it to my eighteenth birthday, but I did. You have helped me more than anyone can imagine and I am beyond grateful for everything you have done and continue to do for me. Knowing that there’s at least one person out there who supports me gives me the strength to face everyone else, so thank you. I hope you get to read this and realize because of you, someone’s life was saved. I love you so much and again, thank you for everything.
David LeCours II