I'm currently undergoing a very important transition in my life. In about two weeks I will be moving back to New York. This is a move I've been wanting to make for many years, but things wouldn't align for me the way I needed them to. About four years ago I made the decision to get back into therapy on a consistent basis which is probably one of my most important breakthroughs. I've been through about 4 or 5 different therapists over the years. It was very important to me that I found someone that I was willing to let my walls down for. Often times there are things I don't feel comfortable sharing with loved ones. There are moments I find myself feeling overwhelmed by my thoughts and emotions. I still haven't completely gotten out of the habit of feeling uncomfortable about sharing what I may be thinking or feeling without feeling like I'm burdening people. That's a mindset I've been working on trying to get out of but it hasn't been easy. Fortunately, communicating effectively has been one of the things I've been addressing in therapy and I think I've been making a little bit of progress.
With my move coming up I've been thinking about many things, but especially what my self-care may look like for me now that I'll be about four hours away from my therapist. I've decided that I'm not interested in finding a new therapist in NY, so what does that really mean for me? That means text messaging, phone calls, and facetiming most likely will be our more consistent forms of communication. The times when I may not be able to get in contact with my therapist, what will I do? I haven't quite figured that out yet. Despite not having everything figured out, I'm still feeling optimistic and encouraged. Another thing I will continue to do that is apart of my self-care, is journaling. I don't put any stipulations on what I write, I just write. Sometimes I've just got to get things out. The truth is... I'm a worrier and an over-thinker. These things aren't necessarily bad, but when it gets to the point where I become overwhelmed is where things can become bad. I begin to shutdown and I'm unable to communicate effectively. This is what I have to be mindful of, which is easier said than done, unfortunately.
An essential part of my self-care is my "me time." That essentially means unplugging from the world sometimes. Taking a day or two to keep to myself and recharging. If I can remember to be patient with myself, that I can only take it a day at a time, and that I have the love and support I need, everything will be everything. I'm very grateful for the place I'm in this year. Last year was one of the most difficult times in my life. Also, probably one of the scariest times in my life. Thankfully these days I wake up looking forward to another day, I don't question my purpose , and I value my life. It's a beautiful feeling.
Things have been going according to plan and I was fortunate enough to find a place that suited all of my preferences. I will be living with one other person. This will be our first time sharing a space together. We don't know each other and as much as I was hesitant about living with someone I don't know, I think that this may end up being good for me. This allows me to step out of my comfort zone and this is all apart of my journey and growth. This is a very exciting time in my life and I'm looking forward to seeing what else is in store.