I called you all here today to let you know that I can no longer allow this man in my home. I know I have taken him back countless times but the pain in my children's eyes and the brokenness of my heart I can no longer bear.
Yes, I understand that I asked for the protection order to be dismissed.
You see, I thought I was making the right choice for my family. I didn't want my little girl or son to see their father in pain. I guess I still love him. I don't know.
Don't look at me that way. I know you think I'm stupid. I know you probably look at us all the same. We're young, black or brown or white, and crazy in your eyes.
I'm sure you answer calls like this every day.
I know you just came out here last week. It's easier for me to call you all on the fly than to make him leave for good. You wouldn't understand. It sounds dumb. Sounds dumb, but I'm not.
This time, I want him gone for good.
I'm serious. So you all aren't going to take him in? Even though I am showing you the bruises on my arms and neck?
So what if he has bruises as well! You didn't see him push me down in front of our kids or pull my hair. Of course he is going to say I'm crazy. He's playing the victim role.
Am I not allowed to protect myself? Am I not?
Protect my kids?
Protect my heart?
THIS TIME, I want him gone for good.
Please wait. Don't leave just yet. I really don't feel safe. I feel as though my life is at risk.
Would you like to be responsible for a death that you could have prevented?
Listen to me when I tell you that he is crazy, not me.
Please don't leave.
(Her heart spoke silently)
No, don't take him in....
(Her mouth uttered politely)
Two weeks later her life ended...
Need help? In the U.S., call 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) for the National Domestic Violence Hotline.