I'm Protecting My Patients From The Coronavirus. Will You Do Your Part To Protect Me?

"Without reinforcements and a cohesive national response, we will lose this war. ... You can help change that. Otherwise, our blood will be on your hands."

MRI images pop up on my computer screen. They are scans from my first patient of the day, a 21-year-old college student named Jessica. She came into the emergency department for persistent numbness and tingling of her left arm. Her brain and spine are speckled with white spots, most old but a couple new — a textbook case of multiple sclerosis.

As I begin to call the emergency room physician to give Jessica high-dose steroids and admit her to the neurology service, I pause. COVID-19 has dramatically changed medical practice and patient care in the past couple of weeks. Doctors must now adapt to a new normal of delaying needed care to mitigate the risk of exposure to COVID-19.

As the senior neurology resident responsible for consults throughout the hospital, I have seen firsthand the effect that COVID-19 has on our patients. I initially thought it was solely a respiratory illness. I was wrong. It is a disease that has upended our entire model of care. Elective surgeries have been canceled, entire clinics are closed, and any nonessential services are now shuttered.

We are seeing an influx of new COVID-19 patients daily. Jessica, besides her newly diagnosed multiple sclerosis, is healthy. Should I prescribe her steroids that dampen her immune system when she could potentially be exposed to COVID-19 in the hospital? Decisions that were obvious only a few weeks ago are no longer so simple.

Before I can talk to Jessica, I get paged to see my next patient. A 63-year-old man named Allen is brought into the emergency room after falling off a ladder. As part of his trauma survey, we find a 3-centimeter mass that we suspect is a brain tumor. As I prepare to admit him for surgery to remove the mass, I again pause. COVID-19 has restricted us to performing only emergency surgeries.

I contact the neurosurgeon to review Allen’s case. She confirms that his mass is not large enough to be considered an emergency. I send Allen home with instructions to call us back for an outpatient surgery appointment. I also send him home with the fear that this mass will continue to grow until we can intervene.

My beeper goes off again and I meet Matthew, a young man with epilepsy. He comes in after experiencing a breakthrough seizure, a term used to describe a seizure that occurs after an extended seizure-free period. It’s unclear what triggered the seizure and I am ready to admit him to the hospital. However, Matthew’s mother arrives and is adamant that he not be admitted to the hospital.

Under normal circumstances, I would explain why it is important to conduct a thorough workup and hopefully convince Matthew and his mother that admission is the prudent decision. But in these unprecedented times, I honestly can’t tell them it is safer here in the hospital and respect their decision to leave. 

I circle back to Jessica and tell her the diagnosis of multiple sclerosis. She is overwhelmed and scared. Three weeks ago, I would have sent her upstairs to our neurology ward and have my colleagues counsel and treat her. But this isn’t three weeks ago. I give her a choice and she opts to go home. This is not the ideal treatment for my patient but it is the right decision at this time.

I make my way to the workroom and return a call about Bryan, a patient I recently diagnosed with ALS. His family had reached out because they think he has a urinary tract infection. After years of training, it is second nature to ask him to come in for basic lab tests to confirm. Instead, I prescribe him antibiotics because I do not want him anywhere close to our emergency room. ALS has weakened Brian’s breathing muscles. If he were to become sick with COVID-19, there is a good chance he would not recover. 

I am now a different physician than I was just several weeks ago. ... Instead of doing the most good, I am trying to avoid doing the most harm.

It’s remarkable that I am now a different physician than I was just several weeks ago. I am now practicing medical distancing ― delaying treatment where possible to mitigate the risk of exposure to a more deadly and imminent threat. Instead of doing the most good, I am trying to avoid doing the most harm.

The paradigm of patient care has been disrupted; it’s safer outside than inside the hospital. This means Allen will have to wait for his mass to be removed, Jessica will not quickly receive IV high-dose steroids and Matthew may have another seizure at home. These are the compromises I and other health care workers have to make to protect our patients. They are not easy decisions but necessary in a time of crisis. 

Now, is the nation willing to do what is necessary in a time of crisis to protect health care and other frontline workers?

For each day the country continues on with this fractured, inconsistent and piecemeal response, we suffer the consequences. In my hometown of New York City, the entire hospital system is already snapping under the weight of our nation’s failed response. The number of deaths increases daily. Doctors and nurses are getting infected and dyingMakeshift morgues are being created. Nurses are even using garbage bags for personal protective equipment. All around, health care workers are reaching their breaking point ― physically and emotionally. It is war and no longer a case of preparing for the possibility of when we will be overrun, but the eventuality. 

In order to defeat this pandemic, we need our president to put people’s lives first and foremost. We need him to do what is necessary and demand a shelter-in-place regimen across the country for at least two weeks. We need him to support and protect frontline workers so they can save others. We need the president to use the Defense Production Act to mobilize industry to collectively start making ventilators, masks, gloves and other protective equipment. We need the president to act decisively and now. 

For everyone else ― young or old ― we need you to stay home. Do not leave unless absolutely necessary. We need anyone with access to precious medical supplies to donate them to their local hospital. Coordinate with your local blood bank to donate blood safely.

Most importantly, please advocate for us while we’re in the trenches fighting the war. Use your voice, your words and your influence. Speak up for us. Write, call, email and tweet your congressional representative, your senator and the president. Demand nothing less than a full response and immediately.

We are doing the best we can to deal with this crisis. But we are understaffed, under-equipped and overutilized. Without reinforcements and a cohesive national response, we will lose this war of attrition. You can help change that. Otherwise, our blood will be on your hands.

Joshua Budhu is a native New Yorker who completed his medical internship at Mount Sinai Beth Israel, one of the hospitals hardest hit by COVID-19. He is one of the chief neurology residents at both Massachusetts General Hospital and Brigham and Women’s Hospital at Harvard Medical School.

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