Locke: "God----it it, Morpheus! Not everyone believes what you believe!"

Morpheus: "My beliefs do not require them to."

- The Matrix


I've gone through more than a few seasons in my life where I was seriously on the verge of giving up my faith altogether. Nothing tragic had occurred. I didn't get sick. I hadn't lost anyone I loved. I wasn't disappointed about anything in my life. I had just come to the conclusion that my faith was of little use to me any longer.

As I observed the world around me and all that went on in it, I saw that those without faith and those with faith both suffered and succeeded in equal measures.

A few of my closest friends identify as agnostic or atheist. They are some of the kindest, moral, ethical, and charitable people that I know.

My larger circle of friends identify as people of faith. They are also some of the kindest, moral, ethical, and charitable people that I know.

My non-believing friends attribute their admirable behavior to the innate goodness of humans.

My believing friends attribute theirs to a "God" at work in them.


We believing Americans are plagued with a strange vice. For many, God is a being or presence that we pray to and do things for in hopes of receiving something good in return.

For instance; one may want a change of career, a mate, a child, maybe even a bigger apartment (me!) and so we pray to God for these things.

We also pray for emotional things; perhaps a better mood, the courage to be more kind or to have a greater surplus of patience.

Still other times we pray for those we love that are suffering or those that we don't know who have been touched by tragedy.

But how many times have you asked God for something and never received it?

If I had to count, it would outnumber all the grains of sand in the sea.


I was counseling someone in my office the other day and he said, "Jesus said that if I ask I will receive. Why am I never receiving what I ask for, even when what I am asking for is not rooted in anything selfish?"

I responded, "What if prayer is more about what it does to you than what you receive from it?"

"What do you mean?" he said.

I responded, "What if prayer is about the shaping of the heart and not about the getting of things?"

He threw his hands in the air, raised his voice and shouted, "Then what's the point of believing in God at all, then?"

And therein lies the Capitalist-American-Gospel.

Many of us believe that faith, prayer, good behavior, charity, whatever, are all a means of getting the things that we want from God- a tether of sorts that transports goods and services from the divine realm into our lives of "spiritual materialism."

We incentivize faith. Many of our prayers are nothing more than transactions- a cost of doing business with God.


Like the gentleman in my office, I too have gone through the same frustrations in my life.

What I have learned over the years is that my faith, my prayers, and my doing of good are not something required of me to "purchase" the things that I need (and want) from God.

The point of my faith is that it deepens my human experience. By drawing closer to God I find myself drawn closer to others, wanting to see a world that is ever on a brighter trajectory.

And you may rebut, "But isn't that what skeptics want, too?"

Yes. It is. And that gives us a kinship that is deeper than debates, doctrines, and dogma. It makes us partners in the making of a better world.

Gandhi once said,

"God is conscience. He is even the atheism of the atheist."

- Mahatma Gandhi

Whether spiritual or skeptical, this is what the vast God of the cosmos is trying to draw humanity toward- conscience.

What of all that I believe then? Jesus. Prayer. The doctrines I do hold to?

I would posit that these are not devices that I use to get what I want from God, nor strategies for convincing the unconvinced to believe what I believe. They are bits of grace, ever shaping me into a person of greater conscience.

Conscience is the prize. It is the point. It is the key.