Falling Into the Comparison Trap; Is it Happening to You?

I don't know about you, but when I spend time around peers I can find myself in a comparison downward spiral.

I just came from an amazing 4 days of connecting with some incredible women. A confidence building, inspiring, find your inner badass kind of weekend. So why am I feeling disconnected, deflated, and a little down?

Because I'm human. As humans, we struggle with life on occasion. One of the biggest areas of struggle for me is comparing myself to others, mostly their "success".

This weekend was all about coming together as women to support and inspire one another. Most of us had never met, which often creates a sense of vulnerability. While I no longer consider myself to be shy or have difficulty meeting people, it's still a bit intimidating.

Of course one of the first things people talk about, especially at a women's entrepreneurial conference, is what they do. I love to discuss what I do. Whenever I talk about it I am completely energized. So what's the problem, you might ask? While I love to talk about it, other people, well, not so much. I help survivors of sexual abuse heal.

It's amazing how similar the responses tend to be. Either Oh, wow, that must be hard. How can you do that? Or a blank look with a quick change of topic. I get it. I understand why people react this way. Sexual abuse is a very difficult reality to face.

Normally it doesn't bother me because I know what I do is important to the 1 in 3 women who have been sexually abused. And it's possible the person who just changed topic isn't ready to let go of the denial that has been keeping her safe, but the seed was planted. By bringing the topic out in the open I help create an avenue for people to heal. While it's incredibly important to talk about the statistics and the devastation abuse causes, the need to talk about the reality of healing is equally important. And nobody seems to be talking about it.

So, as I listened to all of these fabulous women speak about what they do and how connected and inspired they were by the incredible speakers; Brené Brown, Arianna Huffington, Eve Ensler, Gabrielle Bernstein just to name a few, I wondered why I wasn't feeling it too.

Don't get me wrong, I was certainly happy to be there and engaged with people. It's just that I found myself in the comparison trap. Because I wasn't getting the same reactions, I doubted the value in what I do. Of course, my self-doubt was completely self-inflicted.

As a survivor of abuse myself, my biggest vulnerability is worthiness (like many of you, whether you've been abused or not). I'm at a stage in my life, on the other side of struggling through the healing process, where I believe in my worthiness and value as a human being. But, when I find myself making comparisons I sometimes still doubt it.

Because I have been able to heal, these feelings and self-doubt did not stick around. Once I came back to who I am and what I'm passionate about (instead of thinking maybe I should find a different career) the struggle began to melt away.

Comparison is something most of us get caught up in from time to time. We tend to compare our biggest vulnerabilities and the things we like least about ourselves. Have you ever noticed that? It's really never a good thing. This quote by Steve Furtick says it all.

The reason we struggle with insecurity is because we compare our behind the scenes with everyone else's highlight reel.

This is exactly what I did during those 4 days as I compared myself to the authors, speakers, and some incredibly fashionable women.

So what do you say we put together our own highlight reel? Let's focus on our courageous, inspirational, and badassary (as coined by Brené Brown) strengths, passions, and innate knowing of who we are!