Feeling Lucky for Who I Am

I've always wanted to be one of the Kardashians.

I often dreamed of the fame, fortune and beauty until I realized how f***ed up their family is. Sure, they possess family values and are close, but all of them are out of sorts and not to mention, they lost their father at a young age. So, vision of someday "becoming a Kardashian" went away a few years back when I began to think about all the good things I have in life.

At this very moment, I have a wonderful and supportive family and boyfriend. I'm thankful for my friends who have kept in touch despite being so far away from them. Also, I have a gorgeous apartment, great job and loveable dog, so I would say; all in all, I should feel lucky.

When we first moved to another state, 800 + miles away from everything we ever knew, I was absolutely depressed and miserable. I wanted to go through with it, but I didn't think I'd feel as sad as I did. I just wanted my family around me and hated feeling so far away. But, my boyfriend was there to remind me all the good aspects of my life and how I should appreciate who I am and what I have. After that, I began to really think all the things I did have instead of focus on everything that I didn't have. I guess I just needed someone to remind me once again that I have a fabulous life. I mean, my life isn't perfect by any means, but for the time being, I'm just going to be Hope Kumor.

I do wish some of my characteristics were a bit different like not being so damn quiet, shy and has a grasp as to confront someone and wasn't so darn self-conscious. Overtime, these are things I can work on not being, so it will take serious time, effort dedication not to be these things because I've been this way for my whole life. If I just work on one trait at a time, maybe I'll finally be the person I've always thrived to be!