How Google Helped Me Walk Away From an Abusive Relationship

With a little help from Google, I was able to start over.

I decided to start my love life over a year ago when I suspected things with my first serious boyfriend in college were not just normal, fixable problems but actual emotional abuse that needed to end immediately.

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Search: Emotional abuse.
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Search: Am I the abuser?
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Search: Should I break up with him?
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Search: Am I happy?
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Eight months later...

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Search: Meeting his parents for the first time.
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This post originally appeared on Femsplain.

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Need help? In the U.S., call 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) for the National Domestic Violence Hotline.