The Blog

How I Redefined Beautiful

My journey of defining beauty was once like walking down society's pre-paved path heading nowhere. Every step I took down society's path left me empty and lost. I lost weight, gained weight, wore more makeup, and then less makeup while keeping my ear closely to the ground so that I could hear where beauty was going next.
|
This post was published on the now-closed HuffPost Contributor platform. Contributors control their own work and posted freely to our site. If you need to flag this entry as abusive, send us an email.

My journey of defining beauty was once like walking down society's pre-paved path heading nowhere. Every step I took down society's path left me empty and lost. I lost weight, gained weight, wore more makeup, and then less makeup while keeping my ear closely to the ground so that I could hear where beauty was going next. No matter how I looked on the outside or how many compliments I received, I still felt ugly. It wasn't until I switched my focus to what mattered most that it truly dawned on me that beauty was in what I did, not how I looked.

I healed the pains of my past that had driven most of my actions of self-destruction and negativity, which led me to my breaking point. My reflection couldn't hide what I felt most about myself. I didn't see what most saw; I just pretended to. I was good at it.

Through healing, the natural passion to help others heal became what I felt was my calling. I left the path of my past, began to pave my own, and found my purpose because I could now look in the mirror and see someone beautiful. I discovered that beauty is in your being, and what you are can be everlasting. Since being is not a trend, I never have to change. I just have to be.

Is this path easier? It beats following society's path -- changing with every season as if my body is a product, a clothing brand, a trendy color, or allowing it to determine how I should feel about myself this year. But, to be honest, I still struggle with my outer appearance. However, I am no longer at war with what matters. I am and will always be beautiful.

Before You Go

Popular in the Community