Written by an Absolute Expert on the Subject
I know I haven't written a lot recently. I've been doing so much for Zoé4life, I haven't had time. We're working non stop to fund research. And we've also put in place a system by which families can apply to us for financial support through the social workers who are at the hospital. The first time a request for help came through Natalie and I both jumped for joy and simultaneously felt like crying. It felt so good to be able to help other people who are actually in the cancer-fight, a battle we are both all too familiar with. But we also acutely remembered the pain and shock of a family hearing the words "your child has cancer," and knew how limited our help really was.
Still, it felt good to do something.
Because sometimes, there is nothing you can do. And the powerlessness can be overwhelming.
Like when your close friend's daughter dies.
What do you do? How do help with this?
Some people have actually asked me for advice on what they can do to support Natalie and Zoé's family, or other friends who are grieving, deal with their loss. They are afraid to say the wrong thing, so they say nothing and assume I have some kind of magic technique.
So here goes. My list of Expert Advice. This is of course based on Actual Scientific Evidence. You will note that any time I capitalize words I am being ironic. Except at the beginning of sentences, and then I am being a Literacy Expert.
My rambling thoughts on the Obvious Clear Path to helping a person through intense grief.
Step 1: Make sure you talk a lot about the child, share memories and photos. Uh, no actually bad idea. Showing them photos you happen to have of their child is just going to make them sad. Revise that:
Step 1: Never, ever talk about the child, make sure you avoid all subjects that could bring up a memory, including: school, vacations, Christmas, any holiday, any other child in the world, any illness, toys, bedrooms, car seats, clothing, hair cuts, movies, tv shows, books, food, travel, any other person, kitchen tables, animals of any kind, toilets, grass, trees, clouds, stars, and the beach. In fact the only safe subject is the weather and then only if it's raining. Hmm no I think Zoé thought rain was fun. Dammit, there is no safe subject.
So, avoiding the subject is useless and wrong. In fact the person wants to talk about their child. They need to talk about her. Not talking about their child would be like pretending they hadn't existed, which would be the worst torture.
So Step 1: Make sure you talk about the child and make sure you don't talk about the child. Good luck with that.
Step 2: When your friend is sad, cheer them up by reminding them of how great it was that their child existed, even if for too short a time. Uh, no. Wrong. That would be denying the fact that they have every right and reason to be sad.
Revised Step 2: When your friend is sad, distract them with talk of other subjects to get their mind off the child. Be careful to avoid all subjects from Step 1.
Ok that's all wrong. Getting their mind off their child is an impossibility, it would be like telling someone to hold their breath and not think about breathing.
So Step 2: Feel free to talk about and remind them of the wonderfulness of their child and accept their sad thoughts that are the result of the wonderfulness of their child.
Step 3. If they need to talk about the sad parts, the horrible parts, the injustice, the anger, the pain, encourage them to open up and share these feelings and acknowledge the unfairness.
But wait, are you not therefore encouraging them to stay in a negative place?
Revised Step 3: If they want to talk about all the bad stuff, remind them of the good times, and say things like, "Your child would want you to be happy".
Nope, that's not right. The fact is, everything about the situation sucks. They should be mad, sad, and resentful. I'm mad, sad and resentful.
Step 3: The horrible parts happened. There's no way around it and there's no distraction.
Step 4: If they have a happy day, a good day, are laughing or behaving otherwise normal, remind them that they are grieving and that their behavior is odd and probably they are crazy from grief and don't really know how they feel.
Oh wow if I actually did that I would not live to see the sun set. ;-)
Step 4: Ha! If they are happy, that means the grieving is over! We can all get back to normal now.
Uh nope. That's just not how it works.
Step 4: Happy is happy. Every moment when the person is not feeling crushing pain is a gift. Don't question it. Embrace it and enjoy it with them. And when it's gone, trust that it will probably come back later. There is no normal way to grieve.
I guess it turns out there is no proper way to support a person through this incredible grief.
There's no subject to talk about to take away the pain.
There's no distraction.
There's no going back to the way it was before.
There's no normal.
And I am far, far, far from an Absolute Expert on the Subject. All I can say about that title is that when Natalie read it she might have laughed. Which is at least something.
So here is my ultimate Step 5.
Step 5: Just show up.
Show up scared, and angry, and sad, or worried, confused and desperate, or anxious, overwhelmed and frustrated. Show up happy and at peace, ready to have a wave of anger blow past you if it's that kind of day. Show up serious and sad, only to be laughed at. Enjoy the gratitude and appreciation for your presence one moment but expect to be forgotten or ignored another time. It's ok. There are no rules, just as there are no steps that show a clear path to take through a grieving process. There's no perfect right thing to say, and there's no reaction that means you did the right or wrong thing. It's not about you.
Just.
Show.
Up.
This post is part of Common Grief, a Healthy Living editorial initiative. Grief is an inevitable part of life, but that doesn't make navigating it any easier. The deep sorrow that accompanies the death of a loved one, the end of a marriage or even moving far away from home, is real. But while grief is universal, we all grieve differently. So we started Common Grief to help learn from each other. Let's talk about living with loss. If you have a story you'd like to share, email us at strongertogether@huffingtonpost.com.