How To Transform Your Relationship With Money To Plan For The Future

How To Transform Your Relationship With Money To Plan For The Future
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By Hadassah Damien

Hustling, freelancing, random day jobs … after I left home, I was on my own to make it work with my labor and the help of the queer punk community and straight up audacity. I ended up in New York City: a place both creatively magical and wildly economically inequitable. One day I was in Brooklyn, gazing at a stately brownstone and saying to myself: “Awww geez, I’ll never be able to own one of those… I can’t even afford to rent an apartment in one!” This was approximately the 3,546th time I’d told myself that, and it felt bad every time.

Something flashed in my mind: Is that true? Like really, forever true? You also thought you’d never find a job you liked, or go to Europe, or fall in love again. But every one of those happened.

I stopped walking. Hold up! Who was this so-called authority in my head, telling me “never”!? And why did I believe her, when as a progressive and radical I was willing to rip apart every other one of the ideologies and beliefs I’d been taught?

I was raised in a working class environment in the US to have low financial expectations and inexpensive passions. As an artist and punk, many of my friends struggle economically, and for many years so did I. Rather than feel bad about it, for 15 years I created DIY art tours and practiced making magical somethings out of nothing while piecing together part-time work. These are some of my proudest accomplishments. I survived.

But this day, looking at that brownstone, I decided to figure out what exactly was in my way of buying a house in NYC, versus what the authority in my head had been telling me. I gathered my audacity and started looking into mortgages, down payments, taxes & income requirements. I called banks, mortgage brokers, shady and less-shady realtors. I made a list, had an agenda and took notes. Out of this experience I got three things:

  1. The clear understanding that in my self-funded situation and with my housing interests, I’d need to make at least $125k/year for at least two years, and have at least $40k in the bank, to buy a home in NYC.
  2. The knowledge that my credit is now excellent, even though I defaulted on my student loans some years back.
  3. And, I started a small business. I now help artists, weirdos, and progressive folks to transform their relationship to money and plan for a future.

With that, I’d started to look at my desire as a possible future: something I could show up in, rather than watch from the sidelines. It was a mental shift decades in the making, and it is no less than deciding to believe I have a future self to look forward to.

Now I’m flipping the script: from making something out of nothing, I’m learning to make something out of something. I’ve looked for guidance and ideas all over, and along the way I’ve read every finance and money writer I could, and found some great and some trite. “Change your mindset, change your finances” pieces rub me the wrong way, as many simplify and obscure the lived reality that informs our future visions: “Think yourself wealthy”?!? LOLZ. Sure you can just “think your way” easily—if your lived reality doesn’t also come with active oppression and lack of resources.

Truth: no one can just think themselves free from institutional constraints like sexism, racism, redlining, generational poverty, social injustice, or labor exploitation. Media narratives lie.

But here’s an important fact: constraints are not the whole picture. We don’t live in a wholly deterministic world. We do have some power to nudge our lives in this direction or that. We are agents for our future selves. Our beliefs inform the strategies we’re even willing to entertain. As a matter of fact, it was only when I did some belief-shifting for myself that I was able to figure out the steps I needed to take to go from economically precarious to stable. That’s a mindset shift grounded in reality.

To go back to what I learned about buying a place in pricey NYC, learning exactly what would need to happen financially to get there made it way more real. Making it real put me in a place of choice: knowledge is power. I was struck by the realization: Just because I don’t have a $125k/yr job right now doesn’t mean it’s impossible—it means it’s not happening right now. I could, if I really set my mind to it, upend my life, figure out how to do a bootcamp or go into sales and get a $125k/yr job. Other people do it. Basic white men who don’t even work that hard do it. Even if I don’t have what I need now, what I thought was impossible might not be, and I can always use the information to change course.

But, unlike in the simplified versions of mindset transformation, I know I need to understand the constraints in my way so that I can be smart enough to navigate them.

Here’s how I see these constraints play out:

  1. REAL CONSTRAINTS: The real constraints on us and our families define our early lives. Our economic situation at birth impacts us. Our gender, race, sexuality, physical ability & other factors also may put barriers in our lives due to the world around us being inequitable.
  2. NORMALIZED CONSTRAINTS: At some point, being constrained starts to seem normal. “It is what it is.” We get used to not being able to change some things and living among barriers become commonplace. We may not see options modeled to us of lives with paths that resonate. We may struggle to imagine ourselves as having exciting choices.
  3. INTERNALIZED CONSTRAINTS: Having heard or seen “No” and “It’s Not Possible” and “That’s for _____ people” and “Who Do You Think You Are?” we start to tell it to ourselves. Now we’ve assimilated our psyches into a constraint model. This is internalized oppression. We begin to be part of our own constraint, along with the real barriers that are in our way. We prohibit ourselves from imagining other roads, including ones that are not clearly blocked.

I started to get stoked: what if everything I thought about money and how it impacted my future could change, as long as I understand the real vs fake constraints, and actually believe I can act to change my future?

Take the example of a first-generation college or graduate student: Yes, education is technically open to everyone, but the hurdles to imagine that *you could* do it, and figure out how or what to study, are much higher if you have no models or guidance. Not to mention the money/loans part of the equation.

Another example: coming from a family where no one’s had a “professional” job it’s harder to imagine let alone figure out how to have a professional career if it’s not something that even comes to mind as an option. Working for clients instead of a boss? HOW!? If you don’t imagine it as possible, it will definitely not happen.

TO BREAK OUT OF INTERNALIZED CONSTRAINTS:

Your task is to figure out the difference between real constraints and self-imposed ones, so you can get out of your own way. Your goal is to imagine possibilities for your future self and get some specifics so you know what you’d do next.

  1. Reality test your “I will nevers.” Notice when you tell yourself “No.” Notice what you shut down immediately. Notice what you say you’ll “never” do. Is it “I’ll never retire” or “I’d never be a doctor” or ______? How accurate is that? Why?
  2. Try mentally modelling something you previously imagined to be totally out of your grasp. For me, that was imagining what it would take to buy a house in NYC. Before, I’d just shut down the idea as ridiculous and not thought it through. Once I actually let myself imagine it, I got crucially valuable information and have a benchmark that I could try to achieve if I decided that was my focus.
  3. Reframe “Never” into your choices. “I am not going to try to get a six-figure job right now.” “I am not planning on getting a BA.” “I am not going to try to buy right now.” Does it make you notice what you are doing and are choosing? It should.
  4. Identify what’s gotten in your way so far and separate out things out of your control from things you do have power in. You might always need to send money home, or deal with sexism, or push against the unfairness of the racial wealth gap; but if money is an issue is it also time for a new job, to ask for a raise, or start a side gig?
  5. Bonus: think about what you can do to make more choices for yourself and other people. Advocating for universal healthcare so folks feel free to try to start businesses? Talking to a friend or young person about what going to grad school is really like and offering guidance?

In the journey towards our future selves, figuring out our relationship to money is a key step, because money is always a proxy for other things. Yes: mindful spending and courageous career steps matter a lot, but so does what we believe is possible for ourselves and how we act under the constraints we’re dealt. Depending on the messages we’ve internalized, we could be cutting ourselves off from possibility—and believe me, that’s just what the powers in place want. It’s a radical act to believe you will persist in a harsh world, and I think each of us deserves the depth of that self-belief and sustainability. What would it take to really think big for yourself so you can survive to thrive in your future?

This was published as Hadassah’s guest column ‘Money, Possibility, and Imagining Our Futures’ in The Wild Word magazine. www.thewildword.com

Hadassah Damien is a Brooklyn-based artist, activist, small-business owner, and creator of the iconoclastic finance blog and education series Ride Free Fearless Money. Her mission is to stabilize marginalized communities by empowering folks’ relationship to their money, and to help people hack capitalism.

Hadassah Damien is a Brooklyn-based artist, activist, small-business owner, and creator of the iconoclastic finance blog and education series Ride Free Fearless Money. Her mission is to stabilize marginalized communities by empowering folks’ relationship to their money, and to help people hack capitalism.

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