If Obama Losses the Election It Will Be My Fault

I hadn't planned to volunteer for the Obama campaign. I know I will vote for him, so I decided that was enough.

I'm very busy trying to make a living as a freelance writer. I'm one of the 8.1 percent unemployed that has given up looking for a real job.

The competition is fierce in my profession as a journalist. Ever since newspapers downsized you can see rabid roaming bands of ex-journalists fighting each other for the rare, paying story assignment.

In my desperation to survive, I feel I'm justified in ignoring the emails and phone calls asking me to donate money and volunteer at my local Obama campaign office.

I've written back to these folks telling them that I've given as much money as I can afford to and I'm busy trying to make a living, but they still come.

Being the news junkie that I am, I watch and listen to everything on the airwaves. I subject myself to the right wing radio because I want to know what those talk show hosts are telling their faithful, yet ill-informed, audience.

I take it all in with a large amount of outrage. However, none of the trash talk got to me as much as when I heard Mike Turzai, the Pennsylvania GOP House majority leader, gloat that forcing special voter ID requirements will help Republicans and Mitt Romney win in Pennsylvania.

This news was so appalling it brought me to my knees, figuratively. I don't pray.

I am suddenly frightened. What if the Republicans win? Could they win? Am I being too overly self-confident that more people think as I do?

This piece of constitutional insult got me off my chair. I left my home computer and walked into my local Obama campaign headquarters. I joined with the ordinary folk sitting at makeshift Goodwill tables making phone calls. The office is not a glamorous place. It's located in an empty storefront next to a car rental dealer.

It doesn't resemble anything on television such as "Battleground" or a campaign episode on the "West Wing."

My job is to call people in the battleground or swing states. A state where no political party has a majority and the race is extremely close between the Republicans and Democrats. I know these calls are important. I get it. Nevertheless, it takes some chutzpah to do this. I hate it but I do it.

I had to drink two cups of strong coffee and eat a big chocolate bar to gear up for the task. I dialed the first number on my list. A woman answered who said she really didn't care. She's registered, but not sure if she'll vote this time.

Call number two voted for Obama and is still a strong supporter. Yeah.

Two down and thirty to go.

Call number three is a committed Romneyite. He voted for Obama in 2008, but not this time he said. He is disappointed in Obama's record of not closing Guantanamo, that he extended the Patriot Act and that he didn't get the troops out of Afghanistan fast enough.

I wanted to engage this man in a discussion, but we are told not to. We have a list of talking points to follow if the person we call is truly undecided. But if the call is a die-hard Republican or gets the least bit excited, cut the call short and politely say goodbye.

Winning over battleground states are important, I know. We have to try to move these "purple" states to stronger shades of blue.

As I continued to make my calls to registered voters it occurred to me I need to do something more. What about the people who will be prevented from voting? People not on my call list who would vote for Obama but will be stopped from doing so. Those are the people I need to reach.

I read about the impact the voter suppression law will have in Pennsylvania. It will disenfranchise 758,939 people or 9.2 percent of registered voters, a large percentage of them Democrats.

I know where my chutzpah will do the most good. I booked a flight from San Francisco to Philadelphia to fight Mike Turzai head on.

I can do this. Now, when Obama wins, I can take the credit.