Name: Khensani Ruth Mahwayi
Dream job: Filmmaker (producing, directing, scriptwriting)
City, Country: Johannesburg, South Africa
Current job/school: Not working or studying
Challenge: Can’t afford university
I have a raw passion for storytelling. I have always been a writer, but I fell in love with scriptwriting when I was 17, in grade 11 in 2010. I was part of a drama club called “Mzansi slash” at school. At first, I joined as an actor, but as time went by, I applied and volunteered to do the writing. I wasn’t really cutting it as an actor, and I was more interested in the behind-the-scenes and technical part of it.
I didn’t know much about scriptwriting, but the producer and the rest of the team were wonderful ― they took me through the whole process and I loved it. Sadly, the club fell apart when most of the leaders graduated that year. The following year, I also passed my matric (the exams required to graduate) and left school. But I never stopped writing.
I hoped to pursue a career in film and television after matric. My family wouldn’t hear any of it. For three years, I tried to please my family. They wanted me in the health sciences, my father especially. It was one regret letter after the next. Any acceptance letter came with a regret letter from the financial assistance people. My family couldn’t afford to pay my fees – both of my parents are unemployed – and the NSFAS (National Student Financial Aid Scheme) always rejected me. It was one emotional rollercoaster.
It was only in 2015 that I decided to actually follow my dreams and move away from the dreams of my family. I applied to the Tshwane University of Technology to study for a diploma in film and television production. I was excited when I was invited for an interview in August. I believed I aced it, but I was rejected without an explanation. That hurt a lot, but I never gave up. In January, I tried again with Boston Media House, and I applied for a Mo Flava bursary (scholarship). Yet again, another disappointment.
I came to terms with the fact that I wasn’t going to be studying this year. It’s my fourth year at home, unemployed. I promised myself I would try again next year and I intend on keeping that promise. In the meantime, I am writing, writing and writing. I am going to do whatever it takes to achieve my goals and pursue a career in film and TV, because I honestly cannot imagine myself doing anything else.
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