Moving to another state where you know no one is often difficult. It's even harder when you have no friends that you can confide in. Your real friends are 800 + miles away back at home and you must make new ones, which isn't easy.
My boyfriend doesn't care too much if he makes friends or not and for a little bit neither did I. I mean, time and time again people have let me down and haven't come through for me, so why do I need friends to feel happy? I agreed with my boyfriend's mentality of not caring so much. Well, that was until I really thought about it. Who would I turn to when my boyfriend didn't want to go dancing? Who would I call when I wanted to have a "girl's night?" What would I do when my boyfriend and I got into an argument? I would have nowhere to go and not a soul to talk to if this sort of thing occurs and I felt lonely.
Now, don't get me wrong, I absolutely love my boyfriend and love hanging with him. He's my best friend, but he cannot be all I have. He asks, "So, I'm not enough for you?" That's not it at all. But at home, I had least 3-4 close friends I saw quite often, but now I don't have any besides him. I don't want to lose myself because before we moved here, I used to do more things on my own and that's my fault. I've been too reliant on him and have lost my sense of independence. I have no one to blame besides myself. And, I'm not saying that it's a horrible thing because your boyfriend should be your best friend as well as your lover and mine is, but is it a crime that I want friends?
It doesn't bother him, but I want to hang out with girls and have girl talk. Truthfully, I miss my best friend, Jess too. Her and I would always go out dancing and have an enjoyable evening and I yearn for that. Now, she lives in Portland and has a few friends, but I'm over here looking pathetic calling out for friends.