As the old Zen parable does, many years ago there was a farmer who had a horse that was very valuable to him. One day, the horse ran away, and the townspeople commented, "Oh, no! How terrible for you!" The farmer responded, "Maybe yes, maybe no."
The following day, his horse returned with six stallions alongside it. The townspeople said, "How wonderful! You have six new horses!" The farmer responded, "Maybe yes, maybe no."
A few days later, the farmer's son was trying to break in one of the stallions when he was bucked off, breaking his leg. The townspeople said, "Oh, how awful! Your poor son!" The farmer said, "Maybe yes, maybe no."
A week later, the army came through town, drafting all the young men to fight in war. Except -- the farmer's son was injured, and so couldn't go. The townspeople cried out, "You're so lucky! Your son is saved!" The farmer responded, "Maybe yes, maybe no."
We can all see the lesson in this story: that it would have been a mistake for the farmer to overreact to his circumstances -- either good or bad -- because in the end he did not know how things would turn out. The problem is, though, that most of us are more like the townspeople than the farmer.
One patient I worked with, a young woman in her 30s, always seemed anxious and unsettled. When her life was going well (with work, her relationships, her financial life, etc.) she was happy. When bad things happened, though, she blamed herself and obsessed over how she could make things better, refusing to relax until she felt she had solved all of her problems. And even in those moments when things were going well, she was stressed about making sure everything stayed that way.
If you've ever felt similarly, you can rest assured that you have a lot of company. So many of us live in a constant state of reactivity and uneasiness, trying to control things that are far outside our control. We stress about our to-do lists, even though no matter how many items we cross off, more will take their place. We feel like we can't relax and be happy until we have achieved certain goals, but when we get what we want, we just want something else.
But -- what if there could be an alternative? What if we didn't have to wait until the chaos settled to find peace and calm? What if we could find peace and calm right now, even amidst all the chaos of life?
Eastern philosophy offers such an alternative in the practice of equanimity, which can allow you to face difficulties in life with evenness and composure.
Traditionally, one practices equanimity by repeating certain phrases during meditation practice. It can be helpful to have a regular meditation practice (even if for only five minutes a day) to develop equanimity, but it is not necessary. Daily life can be an opportunity to practice. Try repeating these phrases to yourself during difficulties that come up in everyday life:
1. When you feel a general sense of uneasiness about yourself and your life, repeat:
May I accept things just as they are.
May I accept myself just as I am.
So many people feel that they need to make certain changes before they can feel "good enough," but we are all good enough just as we are, at this moment.
Accepting yourself and your life circumstances doesn't mean you won't work to change or improve things, but it means you don't need to wait to start treating yourself kindly.
2. When someone you care about is suffering and there's nothing you can do to change their circumstances, repeat:
I care about your pain.
Through this caring may your pain be eased.
A while back, when I was in the middle of a silent meditation retreat, I saw an older woman fall and break both of her ankles. I immediately broke silence and rushed over to help her (a trait likely ingrained as a doctor). She was in tremendous pain, and became crushed as she realized she wouldn't be able to continue the retreat.
At first I felt terrible, and guilty that I couldn't do more to help her, but then I realized I could feel compassion for her without believing it was my responsibility to control the outcome of her injury.
The above phrase helps you cultivate compassion for other's suffering, without feeling like it's your responsibility to solve the world's problems.
3. When someone you care about is engaging in self-destructive behaviors and you can't stop it, repeat:
I wish nothing but the best for you, but
Your happiness depends on your actions, and not my wishes for you.
We all have had friends, parents or children we have watched go down a bad path. Maybe they've abused drugs or alcohol, or alienated people around them through erratic behavior, or acted irresponsibly or hurtfully.
Unfortunately, we do not have the power to control the path of another person, no matter how much we care about them. This phrase helps you cultivate healthy detachment in your relationships, where you can care for another person without getting caught up in trying to prevent them from making mistakes.
4. When bad things happen, repeat:
Whether I understand it or not, things are unfolding according to a natural order.
Remember the above story of the farmer? When his circumstances changed (for better or worse), he did not buy into the townspeople's beliefs that his fortune was so great or so terrible. He understood that the story hadn't yet unfolded.
Have you wasted mental energy on a worry that never came to fruition? I sure. know I have. But I try to practice being like the farmer instead of the townspeople. This phrase helps you remember that your story is always still unfolding.
5. When you have a few moments to meditate, take a comfortable seat, close your eyes, and repeat:
Breathing in, I calm my body.
Breathing out, I calm my mind.
May I be balanced.
May I be at peace.
Equanimity is being able to hold all elements of your experience with wholeness, coherence, and harmony. It is a practice of finding freedom, no matter what life brings you.