'My Name is Dr. Majed and I Am Another Syrian Doctor Killed During Duty'

My name is Dr. Mohamad Majed Bari My friends and patients called me Dr. Majed I was a doctor not a terrorist I saved lives while terrorists take lives away I was killed when my car was targeted with a heat-seeking missile by a Syrian fighter jet I bled to death No emergency crew was able to reach me on time The International Committee of the Red Cross and the UN are not allowed by the government in my hometown behind rebel lines They stay away safe in the capital They have to abide by the system's bureaucracy The system does not protect me or my patients There were no news reports of my death. The reporters are all in Kobani

I was riding in an ambulance in Aleppo trying to save another life Another three civilians were killed with me They joined another 200,000 Syrians killed in my homeland I was working with a humanitarian organization called Saving Lives! I was killed while saving lives "How Ironic," you may say but Syria is the land of ironies these days

Many of my colleagues left Aleppo because they were afraid about losing their lives. Some of my friends were detained, tortured and killed just because they insisted on working as doctors They swore to save lives They were treated like criminals or even worse We were told that the whole world respects our neutrality We were told the Geneva convention guarantees our impartiality We were told that being a doctor is like being an angel You give from yourself to heal your patient The regime did not respect any of that The world did not rush to help us We suffered in silence like my homeland Some of my friends died drowning trying to flee on boat to a new land of hope They were swallowed by unsympathetic waves of the Mediterranean sea

I stayed because it is my duty to save lives I stayed because if I left who else will stay? Who else will offer a hand of healing to a sobbing child pulled out of the rubble of her home destroyed by a barrel bomb? Who else will vaccinate the children in my neighborhood so they don't have polio or measles? Everyone left us to face our fate We have no one but God He is watching those who deserted us I guess He is testing them and testing us I don't expect anyone to react to my death I don't expect anyone to stop the killing in my hometown

I lost my faith in humanity But I lived a fulfilling life and I don't regret a minute I had serving my patients I will join another 560 Syrian doctors who were killed by the war criminals My patients will miss me and so will my wife and two young children I will miss what is left of my city and homeland I will miss the courage of my colleagues who are still working Saving lives as usual I will miss their faith, their warmth and their humor And I will miss the sounds of the barrel bombs It is too silent here It is too cold It is too dark It is too "un-Syrian" Pray for me and for my homeland

2014-11-05-15290_10152280100211685_3057519165091509338_n.jpg Dr Majed Bari with his Newborn Child

My name: Dr. Majed Bari Medical School: Aleppo University Medical School Graduation: With honors Date of my death:10/15/2014 Place of Death: Aleppo City, Castello road Cause of Death: Heat-Seeking Missile Reason of Death: Saving Lives

Zaher Sahloul is a Syrian-American critical care specialist who is the president of The Syrian American Medical Society, SAMS.