Ronda Rousey Admits She Contemplated Suicide After Loss To Holly Holm

She said that the idea of starting a family provided the hope she needed to push forward.

In the wake of her physical and proverbial fall to Holly Holm at UFC 193 last November, Ronda Rousey’s despair cut so deep that she contemplated suicide, the former UFC champion recently told Ellen DeGeneres.

I was literally sitting there and thinking about killing myself and that exact second I’m like, ‘I’m nothing, what do I do anymore and no one gives a shit about me anymore without this,’” Rousey explained on the episode of DeGeneres’ show that will air Tuesday.

In the November bout, a Holm kick to the head sent Rousey crumpling to the floor -- a knockout that lost her her title in an "unthinkable" fashion.

It was only the sight of boyfriend Travis Browne and the reminder of the future they may share together that made her push through.

I looked up at him and I was like, ‘I need to have his babies. I need to stay alive.’”

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Rousey’s public appearances following the upset in Australia have been sparse. First spotted covering her fight-battered face at Los Angeles International airport days after the bout, she’s slowly made her way back into the public eye. Her first major post-fight interview was with ESPN’s Ramona Shelburne the day after Thanksgiving, during which she admitted to being “really fucking sad.

It’s expected that Rousey and Holm will lace up against each other once more in a winner-take-all rematch, but the date of the contest has not yet been announced.

For Rousey, the foreseeable future is all about making sure she is physically and mentally in the right place to take the next step forward.

"I did a lot of thinking and I was like, 'Why did this happen?'" she continued. "I do believe all the best things come from the worst things. Every worst thing that happened in my life resulted in the absolute best things ... [So I'm thinking] maybe just winning all the time isn’t what’s best for everybody."

" ... Everyone has their moment of picking themselves off the floor ... Maybe I just had to be that example of picking myself up the floor for everyone [else], maybe that’s what I’m meant for."

If you or someone you know needs help, please call 1-800-273-8255 for the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. Outside of the U.S., please visit the International Association for Suicide Prevention for a database of international resources.

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