My memoir, Washed Away: From Darkness to Light, will be released soon. In it, I detail my recovery from a more than 17-year battle with childhood abuse, sexual victimization, eating disorders, depression, self-harm, body dysmorphic disorder, and other mental health issues, all while trying to navigate through the dark side of the modeling industry.
Child sexual victimization had an enormous impact on my relationships with men for many years, and it took a lot of therapy and dedication to loving myself before I could understand what love really was. My relationship with my dad was strained for a long time, however we now have a strong bond. We are open and honest with each other and he has helped me through the darkest times of my life. I don't know where I would be without the love of my dad.
Although I've written a book detailing my relationship with my dad, there is still so much about him that I don't know. When we sat down for the Talk to Me series, I think we both were a bit nervous because we didn't know where this conversation would lead. However, I soon realized that there was nothing to be nervous about. He was just the same loving, humble father as always -- that will never change, and I wouldn't want him any other way. What would I do without the love of my dad?
Need help? In the U.S., call 1-800-656-HOPE for the National Sexual Assault Hotline.
If you're struggling with an eating disorder, call the National Eating Disorder Association hotline at 1-800-931-2237.