The Day I Realized I Didn't Want To Go Back Home To My Husband

"It took a few months for me to come up with the courage to do what I knew I needed to do."
One particular Kelly Clarkson song was just the push mom and blogger Kasey Ferris needed to leave her marriage.
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One particular Kelly Clarkson song was just the push mom and blogger Kasey Ferris needed to leave her marriage.

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Five years ago, writer Kasey Ferris split from her husband after six years of marriage. These days, she feels like an entirely different -- and better! -- person.

"My divorce feels like it was so long ago," Ferris told The Huffington Post. "I feel like I've come so far since then. Who I am is totally different than who I was when I was married, which is a testament to how I've moved on."

Below, the Nebraska-based freelance writer and mother of five shares a few things -- including travel and a game-changing Kelly Clarkson song -- that helped make the process of letting go easier.

The Song
"It was a summer day when I realized my marriage was over. I was on the freeway between LA and San Diego with my best friend at 11 p.m., her kids asleep in the backseat and I just lost it. I sobbed my face off and told her I didn't want to go home. Not the next day, not ever. I couldn't bear it. The next day I cried the whole way home (two plane rides and a layover), listening to Kelly Clarkson's 'Already Gone' on repeat and it just hit home. I was gone. It took a few months for me to come up with the courage to do what I knew I needed to do, but eventually he did something that clinched the deal for me and we separated the following May."
The Quote
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"I'm a big believer in the healing power of words, so I'm sort of an inspirational quote junkie. I was big into positive thinking -- in fact, that's the time in my life I point to when I realize I'd become an optimist instead of a cynic. So a lot of my favorite quotes and sayings had to do with the fact that my thoughts were creating my reality. One I loved in particular is 'Respect yourself enough to walk away from things that no longer serve you, grow you or make you happy.' Sure, I could be pissed, upset, hurt, whatever -- and I needed to feel those things, too -- but at the end of the day, if I wanted a happier existence, I first had to start working on my head."
The Splurge
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"I have friends around the country and I started really focusing on travel a lot more. I lived on a tight budget and squirreled away every single dime I could, then got on a plane whenever possible and, when I couldn't, I would get in the car and road trip. My favorite place was Coronado, California (still is, actually), mostly because my best friend lived there. Travel has always been so incredibly soul-cleansing for me. Here I am (far left) with two friends at the Cliff Walk in Newport, Rhode Island.
TV Show And Movie
"I watched a lot of 'Sex and the City' -- the series and especially the first movie. I've bought at least four copies of that movie and have the entire TV series on DVD. It was a life raft. The scene in the movie where Carrie goes after Big on the street, then Charlotte hugs her and screams 'NO!' at Big when he tries to follow her? Still to this day makes me sob. Every time. I have three best friends who are exactly like that and I am so, so blessed to have them in my life."
The Work Of Art
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"I found Jack Vettriano and fell in love. I bought a giant print of his 'The Singing Butler.' It's still in my living room."
The Hobby
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"I followed my curiosities regardless of how they came to me. I took a class on palm reading once (talk about a fun party trick!). I started learning another language. I worked a lot on my writing and the experience fed my first book which eventually went on to win third place in the Women's Fiction Writer's Association's Rising Star contest. I followed whatever curiosities I came across and wound up having some pretty amazing stories come out of it."

Before You Go

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