The Demons of Depression

The Demons of Depression
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Unless you suffer (yes, suffer) with depression, you will never truly understand what it feels like.

Let me try to enlighten you.

It’s dark. So horribly dark. And there are demons in the dark that are attacking you, physically and mentally. They are relentless and attack the One who keeps the light from shining.

On top of that there are voices. Voices screaming at the tops of their lungs. They scream out every weakness and transgression you have ever had since the day you were born. They scream continually, never stopping to breathe.

And then on top of the darkness and the voices (as if we need more) there is a physically abusive demon that tells you what an awful job you are doing, at everything you attempt or have attempted, especially attacking the unconditional love for your family.

Toss in the environmental struggles we all have in our day to day lives and the only solution is taking your own life.

When you mesh all of these entities together it creates one awful, continual hell to live in.

And yes, remember all of this is continual; 24 hours a day, seven days a week, even in your dreams.

And just when you think you might have one of them under control, one of the other two ups its game and comes down even harder on you. You can’t control any of it.

Pretty soon, the Future comes into play with its own set of evil entities, taunting you about the ‘what could bes’ and the ‘if you would haves’.

It’s an ongoing battle where you are never the ‘winner’. It rages on and on, never sleeping, never stopping.

And the medications you’ve been put on for ‘depression’? All they do is numb your senses where you can’t fight back. They make you drowsy, physically and mentally limp, creating a more vulnerable ‘you’ for all of the evil that is raging within.

And when you go to counseling to try and stop everything that is attacking you? Oh, they love that. Even more fodder to feed their incessant appetites. Sure, bring up old hurts and memories to try and ‘deal’ with them. You’re feeding the monster even more than it’s already been fed, feeding it so it can rage on, full of fuel.

Major depressive disorder is a cycle that can’t be broken. There is always some memory to dwell on, some imperfection to hate yourself over, some awful consequence that you forever pay for. It’s an internal damnation that can’t be reversed.

So the next time someone says they are ‘depressed’ think about everything they are continually going through instead of just chalking it up to a ‘bad day’ or ‘that’s just their personality.’

Depression is a major problem, quickly becoming an epidemic. It is tearing families apart, limb from limb. It is attacking our workplaces and friendships. It doesn’t discriminate among any class, ethnicity or religion. And it is slowly winning by means of alcoholism and deaths. Get help.

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