The Lesbian Chronicles 13 : Allowing in the Good

Lately as a practice, I have been trying to see the glass half full. Not looking through rose colored glasses as before, for that has distorted my true and clear vision; but by honoring the good.

This can be as simple as appreciating a doggie kiss from my circus puppy Lucille, or as complex as excavating the beauty from the abyss of my abruptly severed relationship with my one true love, Mary Jane.

Last night I had a dream where I was sitting in a light filled room. A beautiful woman who looked like a cross between Cate Blanchett and Julie Andrews came into the room and sat down next to me. She took my hand while looking deep into my soul. In her beautiful British accent she spoke these words to me "Just allow the healing in Katharine, allow the good to flow into your life". I woke up soon after and just lay in my bed, letting her words bathe my being.

I have been so defended due to circumstances in my life lately, or possibly for forever; that I have forgotten to allow my heart to soften; this softening would help me to accept into my heart : healing, beauty and goodness . I am making Allowing in the Good my new personal mission statement; so that in times of trouble I will remind myself to:

1. Take three deep healing breaths.

2. Soften my heart and trust in my own innate worth - ability.

3. Try to search for the good in every situation - even if I need to get my snow shovel out to excavate my deep to get there.

I now raise my glass of O.J in a toast to this wonderful Wednesday as I eagerly await the eight o'clock hour so I can watch Survivor. Who will be voted out tonight?