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What Happens When The 'Fat Girl' Develops An Eating Disorder

"If you develop an eating disorder when you are not thin to begin with you are a success story.”

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“We guzzled vitamin water and vodka."

"Toasting to high school and survival, complimenting each other’s thigh gaps."

"Trying diets we found on the Internet: Menthol cigarettes, eating in front of a mirror, donating blood.” 

That's how 19-year-old poet Blythe Baird began her powerful slam poem "When The Fat Girl Gets Skinny." The Chicago-native performed the poem this past August at the 2015 National Poetry Slam in Oakland, CA. 

Baird described her descent into a crippling eating disorder and how, because she was overweight, many people applauded her for losing the weight rather than getting her help. 

“If you develop an eating disorder when you are already thin to begin with you go to the hospital," Blythe said. "If you develop an eating disorder when you are not thin to begin with you are a success story.”

Baird said family, friends and even strangers admired her for her determination to finally "start taking care of herself." "Girls at school who never spoke to me before stopped me in the hallway to ask how I did it," she said. "I say I am sick. They say ‘No you’re an inspiration.’" 

"How could I not fall in love with my illness?"

Over time, Baird said, she recovered from her illness. "My story may not be as exciting as it used to, but at least there is nothing left to count. The calculator in my head finally stopped."

Baird declared her love for her body towards the end of her performance, telling the crowd: “Now, I am proud I have stopped seeking revenge on this body."

Need help? Call the National Eating Disorder Association hotline at 1-800-931-2237 or visit their website.

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