Like a vast majority of Californians, I was incredibly disappointed by the recent outcome on Election Day. Actually, that may be a bit of an understatement. I was in despair over the result - for a variety of reasons that, for my sanity's sake, I'm not going to get into at the moment.
But I will say, that for the past few weeks leading up to last Tuesday, I was unable to write. My mind was preoccupied with the dreadful possibility that today's reality could indeed come to fruition despite all my best efforts to debate logically and diplomatically on Facebook with my family and friends living in Middle America.
So I found it extremely difficult to sit down and focus on my writing projects. I was just so damn afraid that this was going to happen and in hindsight, I felt a bit paralyzed by it.
And now that it has happened, I've been spending a lot of time wondering whether I should be doing something more than writing stories and blogs and selling t-shirts, no matter how fresh and fun they may be. (Total side note: we've sold 3x more "Nasty Woman" t-shirts after the election than before.)
I have a law degree from a great school and although it's been awhile, I do have some experience having volunteered and worked within politics. I didn't enjoy it as much as I do writing stories. But this frightening turn in political events has led me to question whether I would be in better service to my community and country if I returned to politics.
There's always been a feeling within me that wants to make the world a better place. And, a silver lining perhaps, that feeling has been burning bigger and brighter than ever before because of this immense wake up call of an election.
But I also can't help but remind myself of my deep love for stories and how impactful writing a great movie or TV show can be - affecting millions at one viewing and evidently, helping to even craft history. After all, our current President-Elect's reputation as a skilled and tough businessman was carefully crafted every week by writers on NBC's "The Apprentice."
I was recently told by someone who worked for years on "The Apprentice" that had he known then what would happen now to our country by making their host look so good on television, he would have never done it in the first place.
So with all this in mind, I've decided to stay on course.
I'm not going to go back into politics, although tempting. I'm going to continue to follow my passion and focus on my writing career. But what I'm going to do differently is I'm going to do my best to think twice about the impact my stories will make in the first place.
I plan to return my focus and energy - and even anger and fear - into my creative projects. But from now on, I'm going to ask deeper questions about the possible implications my stories will have on society.
So with that important career decision made, it's back to writing for me but I'm still very curious to know if any readers can relate to what I've been going through and what you too have ultimately decided to do differently because of this election.