Getting out of bed in the morning is actually a huge privilege.
It was pure hell. After seeing those two pink lines on that pregnancy test and feeling all the initial excitement and joy
The transition from a full, fast-paced life to one where you can only get off the couch once or twice a day can be really
Every day of a high-risk pregnancy feels like you're holding your breath, desperately hoping to make it to the next milestone. Hearing a heartbeat. Making it to the second trimester. Good news at your anatomy scan. Being on this roller-coaster can leave you feeling anxious and terrified every day.
You feel like it's all your fault. You feel like your body is failing. So that means you are failing. The reality is, a high-risk pregnancy can happen to anyone. At any time. You didn't do anything wrong. You didn't cause this and you certainly aren't failing.
My first four babies were perfectly healthy, textbook pregnancies and births. I guess you could say I got cocky.
As my mother helpfully pointed out, if Viv waits until she's 40 to have kids like I did, then I'll be 80 (eighty!) before I'm a grandma.