There were days when all I wanted to do was sleep, but I'd hit the bed and be unable to. It was torture. And yet, the doctors could not do anything for me.
Your relationship may seem one-sided during these times, but by helping your partner through a very difficult and painful affliction, you are strengthening your relationship and their mental health in the long term.
Mental illnesses are as colorful as they are dark and as deep as those uneducated about them seem shallow. Too often, they remain faceless, minimized, stereotyped, and overwhelming.
This could help people decide whether or not to stay on antidepressants.
Clinical depression is brutal and unrelenting. It's like holding 50-pound weights over your head while standing in quicksand during a thunderstorm. You're stuck. You're weighted down.
I remember laying in bed with her and holding her closely, strange how our roles were reversed as I began caring for her
It has taken me this long and a dream Ph.D. separation just to get to a conjecture, but at least reasonable conjectures breed solutions, whatever they turn out to be. I already feel less depressed because I am finally taking action. I can almost hear silence again. The road back is less noisy as a result. This in itself makes all the trying and failing, and trying again worthwhile.
How does MBCT work? Using meditation, individuals learn to separate themselves from the sway of their immediate moods. They
I have come to hate depression as fervently as anyone has ever hated cancer, or AIDS, or any of the other scourges that take our loved ones from us. Over the five years I knew her, I watched it slowly devour my friend.
My desire is to never lose that ability, that I never admit defeat, or become another name on the list of those who've lost the war on their minds. I hope that, as time goes on, and if the setbacks continue to occur, I seek not an exit but a welcome embrace. Until it is over, for better or worse, I will continue to chronicle my struggles, making them public in an effort to let you know you are not alone.