Needing help, needing a break, doesn’t make me weak.
And not enough women know about it.
It's often mislabeled as the "baby blues."
Find your safe space, wherever or whatever or whomever that is, and rest there often. Voice your fears, concerns, failures (which are probably more like "failures"), frustrations, and angers. Say them out loud to someone who will listen without judgment. Don't let those things fester and rot inside your soul. Get them out and get on with your day.
My youngest is now two and a half years old and mothering him, and my two other boys, is the purest joy I have ever known. My first pregnancy was difficult. My second was debilitating. My third almost killed me, but I'd do it all again if it promised even a moment of the joy and love I find in them each day.
"You're not alone."
It's open to any woman who has ever had postpartum depression.
I looked at this tiny human and felt nothing. Absolutely nothing. No overwhelming joy at finally meeting this person I'd been so excited for in months prior, no lurking sadness about no longer being pregnant and relishing in those shared "inside mommy's belly" moments. Just... nothing.
"It felt a lot like drowning."
New research could allow women to get help before they even give birth.
There are days I think about you, baby number two. I wonder what sex you'll be and what color eyes you'll have, and I wonder if I will ever see them.
Moms with postpartum depression cannot wait for care and treatment when faced with depression and other perinatal emotional complications. The impact on both Mom and her infant can be serious. But in Massachusetts there is a new model that is providing hope for these mothers and changing the landscape so that providers can provide the care that is needed.
About six weeks after I have birth, I started a rapid decline into a state of complete misery. I would stare at the blank wall, sometimes for an hour straight, listening to the negative thoughts circulating in my mind.
Today I lead postpartum support groups, and thank goodness I have to be the group leader, so I can't walk out of the group and cry in the restroom. I must open up that old inner self to some more compassionate attitudes if I'm going to be of help to my fellow moms.