This Stunning Photo Series Nails What It Feels Like To Have An Anxiety Disorder

These Photos Nail What It Feels Like To Have An Anxiety Disorder
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It can be difficult to verbalize what it's like to experience mental illness, so photographer Katie Crawford decided to show people instead of tell them.

In a stunning self-portrait series titled "My Anxious Heart," Crawford captures how it feels to suffer from generalized anxiety disorder and depression -- two conditions she has personally dealt with since she was a child.

"I created the project as a way for me to personally express what I feel like in my experience. I know it may not be specific to each person, but I hope that it creates the opportunity to open a dialogue between those who suffer from it and those who have never understood it," Crawford told The Huffington Post in an email. "I want the photographs and their paired writings to begin to express the constant, overwhelming presence of anxiety. It's not always terrifying, it's not always strong and it's not always intense, but it's always close by."


Crawford accurately depicts how anxiety and depression feel on the inside -- from feeling like you're wrapped so tightly in anxiety that you can't breathe to the agonizing inability to fall asleep when panic is looming. She also wrote corresponding captions for the photos in hopes that they will further explain what it feels like to deal with the disorders.

"I want people that suffer from [anxiety] to be able to use these images as a reference if they need it," she said. "There's a misconception that anxious people are antisocial, short fused or overdramatic. But they're most likely processing everything around them so intensely that they can't handle a lot of questions, people or heavy information all at once. And I think certain images express that. Anxiety is when you feel everything."


The artist's portraits are a welcome explainer in a world where mental illness is so frequently misunderstood. Only 25 percent of people with mental health issues feel that others are compassionate about their condition, according to the Centers for Disease Control. Crawford said she hopes the images bring to light what she and so many others deal with on a daily basis.

"I want to help end stigma that 'it's not the same as physical illness,'" Crawford explained. "Just like with physical illness, there are days that are lighter. There are days when someone with chronic back pain isn't wincing with every step, but the days of a flair up are almost paralyzing."


Most importantly, Crawford wants others to understand that while anxiety is an illness, it's an illness that can be managed.

"I want people to understand that fears are built on lies we believe," she said. "You have to understand what it is that is causing them to know how to make them lessen. Fear can't control your life. There are so many people that have this illness and I want it exposed for what it is. I want people to know they aren’t alone and that this is a real and very raw disorder."

Take a look at some of Crawford's other stunning portraits below.

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10 Best Yoga Poses For Anxiety
Eagle Pose (Garudasana) (01 of10)
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"The symmetry we experience in practicing balancing poses helps us turn away from the mind's business and towards the body's recalibration and healing," says Brower. The Eagle Pose can be particularly beneficial for quieting the mind and bringing the attention to the body. Try holding standing pose for 30-60 seconds on each side. (credit:Shutterstock)
Headstand (Salamba Sirsasana)(02 of10)
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Headstand can help ease anxiety by reversing the blood flow and forcing you to focus on the breath and the body in the present moment, wellness expert Dr. Terri Kennedy tells the Huffington Post. It may look challenging, but even beginner yogis can practice a modified version with the help of an instructor. "It's surprisingly accessible to many people because you can do it in many ways," she says. "You can do it against the wall to start." (credit:Shutterstock)
Child's Pose (Balasana) (03 of10)
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One of the quintessential resting poses of any yoga practice, Child's Pose -- which involves sitting on the knees and bending forward with arms forward or by your side -- can be very comforting and self-soothing. "Lying on my belly helps me a lot when I feel anxious," says Brower. "Child's pose helps us turn inside and slow our minds down." (credit:Shutterstock)
Corpse Pose (Savasana)(04 of10)
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At the end of your practice -- or anytime you're feeling overwhelmed -- try lying down flat on your back, with your arms at your sides, and simply focusing on the breath for one to 10 minutes."Corpse is the ultimate in terms of relaxation -- it really allows the body to sink down into the ground, and it's easier to tune into the breath when you're lying on the back and watching the belly rise up and down," Kennedy says. (credit:Alamy)
Half Moon Pose (Ardha Chandrasana)(05 of10)
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To quiet the mind and cultivate focused awareness, try the Half Moon Pose, a balancing posture with one leg raised 90 degrees and one hand on the floor or on a block. "Balancing poses take our attention off of the mind and into the body," Brower says. (credit:Alamy)
Supported Shoulder Stand (Salamba Sarvangasana)(06 of10)
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Inversions like headstand and shoulder stand can help you to get out of the "monkey mind" by putting you in a completely different position than your normal life, Kennedy says. "Inversions in general turn things upside down," she explains. "Stress and anxiety are more of a perception of danger and unease, and when you can get out of your mind -- literally -- that helps." (credit:Alamy)
Tree Pose (Vrksasana)(07 of10)
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Before moving on to the Eagle and Half Moon balancing poses, beginners should start with Tree Pose, a basic standing balance to help calm a racing mind and induce concentration. "Balancing poses force you to be honest about where you are currently, and they force you to pay attention to where you are," Kennedy says. "If you're in a tree pose and your mind is wandering, you'll know it -- you'll fall over." (credit:Shutterstock)
Legs Up The Wall Pose (Viparita Karani)(08 of10)
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Kennedy recommends Legs Up The Wall pose as a simple but effective anxiety-busting posture for beginners that can help you to escape the "thinking mind." "You don't have to be so flexible or so strong, and yet it's very relaxing and very calming for the nervous system," she says. (credit:Alamy)
Standing Forward Bend (Uttanasana)(09 of10)
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Forward bends are excellent for calming our nervous system, according to Brower. The posture provides a release of the upper body and soothes the mind through gentle inversion either when practiced on its own or between poses. (credit:Alamy)
Fish Pose (Matsyasana)(10 of10)
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Yoga Journal recommends Fish Pose for fatigue and anxiety relief, as well as gentle back and shoulder stretching. Beginners may want to place a thickly-folded blanket beneath the head for neck support if they are experiencing any discomfort. (credit:Alamy)

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